"Mommy, if you arent Sara, who are you?"

My children truly are wonderful creatures (yes creatures) who have taught me so much about myself and who I really am, that I find it only fitting that a simple question my 3 year old asked me today prompted me to start this blog. 

While I was sitting in my bedroom playing on the computer my daughter, my ever faithful sidekick, sat on the floor playing with a book and basking in "this beautiful day" through the glass door.  "Hey Sara," she calls out to get my attention.

"I'm not Sara, I am Mommy," I replied to her.

"Mommy, if you aren't Sara, who are you?" She replied. 

Good question. 

I have spent the last 5 1/2 years of my life being a stay at home mother to the most wonderful children ever. This was by choice and for the benefit of my children. A mutual decision my husband and I made before we ever had children. I wanted to know without a doubt that if they grew up to be mass murderers, carnies,  or deranged in any way it was for sure my fault (not that I have  anything against carnies). Maybe that makes ME crazy, which really doesn't bode well for them, but hey, that was the logic. 

So now I find myself with two children who are young enough that they still require constant attention and supervision but are starting to wonder what Mommy does and who she is? Daddy goes to work, Daddy works around toys, Daddy plays music, Daddy plays baseball........Mommy, she takes care of us. 

In fact I have been Mommy for so long I almost forgot my name. I am Mommy at home, to my children of course, but even my husband will refer to me as Mommy. "Go ask Mommy, What did Mommy say, Mommy is making dinner, Mommy said no, Listen to your Mommy, etc." I am Mommy at my sons school, "Hello Coles Mommy, Cole your Mommy is here, Ask Coles Mommy if you can have a play date." So ya, if I am not Sara, who am I? 

Well, I have decided for right this moment that I am going to be Mommy. Whats wrong with that? I like being Mommy. I was really uncomfortable for a total of almost 20 months to be Mommy. I squeezed a..... well you know through a you know TWICE to be Mommy. I lost my girlish figure to be Mommy. I wake up every morning to see those beautiful faces that made me Mommy. I watch amazing things happen every day through the eyes of my children because I am Mommy. I laugh and play everyday because I am Mommy. I love being Mommy, I wanted to be Mommy, I AM MOMMY! and I love it.  

My children say amazing things, funny things, crazy things, things that make no sense and things that make me think. They ask questions I love answering, questions I would rather not answer, and questions that have no answer. But EVERYDAY they say something that makes me think to myself, "You just said what?" Now I am going to share those things with you.